Cousin's Engagement Party and my Mum.

One thing I hate is dressing up. Any sort of fancy do where I have to make an effort sends shivers down my spine.

My cousin and his fiance are having a big masked ball engagement party. Last I heard they could barely afford the wedding but meh! I was like shit, a dress! I'm gonna be forced into a dress AGAIN! I actually feel more transsexual when I'm in a dress. Like with make up, I feel like a bad drag act. I can normally avoid this by wearing a nice shirt with lady's trousers but dress code is women in dresses. My mum however is being awesome about this and buying me a suit. Not having to wear a dress would make me feel much more comfortable. I may even go fot a tail coat. XD

I think my mum has guessed that I'm more then a tomboy. Especially now that I'm at university. I asked her what she thought if I had my hair cut even shorter. Her response was "Well then you would look like a boy." This made me smile inside a bit. I think she gets it but is waiting for me to tell her. I want to tell my parents sooner rather then later. Then it's not such a huge surprise when or if I do start transitioning. It's still hard though. I feel I need more proof then just how I feel to make them see it's true. I'm glad I got her some nice gifts for mother's day now.

- Manny