I turn 25 on Sunday. I usually like the day surrounding my birthday as it's when the sun starts shining, flowers start popping up, you don't have to wear a big stuffy coat all the time...just plan good times. I suffer from S.A.D (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and I usually find the winter weather, constant rain and dark days bum me out a lot. As soon as the sun comes out I find myself feeling I can do most things.
I'm still off my pill at the moment. I'm not sure if the recently drama I've been involved with or the lack of lady hormones is making me angry and slightly pissy. I pushed myself to go and see a sad film yesterday and cried my eyes out which made me feel somewhat better. I find crying a good release of tension...a lot like wanking just less fun and more accepted if you do it in public.
I haven't been wearing my binder a lot recently. Due to the fact that I only have one and it's starting to get a bit whiffy. I have to wait till I go home to use my nice safe washing machine instead of ruining it in the communal washing machines. I has been wearing it today though and I always feel happier and more confident walking around without my boobs flopping over the place. I also got myself a nice grey top for going out tonight for my pre birthday drinks. Should be good.
Had a session with my counsellor on Wednesday. The sessions never seem to have any structure and I talked a lot about how I care much more about boyfriend then actually getting the changes. I am putting my foot down about children though. Not having any. And when I have more money I will be having breast reduction..if not all the way down. I think I will be so much happier if I had no boobs.
I really want to start exercising again to get rid of my big thighs. They are the only other thing that makes me look lady like (boo to curves).
That's about it. Speaking of conventions from Cath's last post I'll be heading to Kitacon on the 26th of March. Should be great :D
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