Picking a name

Cath has pretty much has a name sorted for herself. Once the ball starts going she wants to be known as Catherine or Cat for short. I've given thought into what I would like my "guy name" to be but for some reason can't really see it being taken into action.

For ages when I was a kid I loved the named Mark and whenever I wanted to think I was a guy or pretended to be a guy I called myself Mark. I liked being called Umbrav, which is my badges name because though quite androgynous it's still more masculine sounding. I've known a lot of people trying to feminise it by changing it to Umbie or Umbie Chan (pfft). Manny came into the equation when I first started on Second Life. Manny is an original character I have who was quite popular at that time and I enjoyed drawing. When I first started on SL it was kind of a task to make my avie look like what Manny did in my drawings. But after two years he's become more of what I would like to look like.

The most recent name I've been known as is Derren a name that I personally really like and inspired by who I believe to be a very clever man Derren Brown. Only over the last couple of months have I been really thinking "Right...if I'm gonna be a guy..I'm gonna need a new name!" Derren I would like to be known as but this has happened a lot since I've been using Derren on SL and that is being called Darren. Now I don't mind Darren but I don't want it to be my name. I don't reeeaallly want to be called Manny either. Though I like the name I don't want people thinking I pick an unusual name because I could and to make me seem interesting. Just a normal name people could accept.

If things go the way they do I might be considered still female for a few years to come. It that case I thought it would be a good idea to pick a more androgynous name. I'm currently through the names and seeing what would suit me most. and I'm going "I like Tyler...but I don't look like a Tyler"

At least I've only got that and an essay to do. My head is swimming with thoughts of representations of masculinity it's making me crazy. Oh well..only a few more days.