Possibly illegal

Hello all,
I've decided I'd better post something here so that I have a logical excuse for not quite writing a paper that's due in about a week.

Before I get started on the story section of this post, let me first say that I will turn 21 in 18 days! :D Granted I don't like to drink too often- I usually give each drinking session about a 2-3 weeks cool down session before I drink again. It allows me to appreciate it just a little bit more.

Anyway, story time:
Last Friday I went to a friends place for her birthday party. We've been pals since at least 2005 (high school), and we pretty much came out to eachother first. Albeit I came out to her twice, once as a bisexual male, and the other time as a woman.
Regardless, it was probably the first time that Ive ever really been invited to a party. Since I'm relatively secluded when it comes to social groups, I'm not invited to parties often, if at all. I don't think its really a big deal. Still, I got a text from my friend saying that her and her girl are having a last minute birthday party, and I'm invited.

I could stop here, and my reputation and y'alls perception of me could remain intact. Yet I'm fairly sure I'm making too much of a big deal about it. While at the party there was a lot of drinking (some people, my friend and myself included, were underage) and pot smoking. It was really my second time smoking the stuff... the other time was also at my friend's place, which may or may not have been a deciding factor in me attending her party.

Still, I got high. It felt pretty good, to say the least.
For those of you who do not know, I'm terribly afraid of dogs, and my friend happened to have one at her house... so I was wary of it for most of the night. When I smoked a little bit I realized that I was totally cool with the dog, and even started petting it- something I wouldn't do normally. I also have a lack of sense of smell- and my sense of taste is pretty terrible too. Still, while high everything tasted WAY better than I've ever remembered them to be... it must be what normal people taste!

It was a pretty rocking night. There was a bonfire (illegal, and I was freaking out about it before I mellowed out a bit) and music outside along with blankets. Everyone made vegan smores and all was good. Afterwards I helped put out the fire with my friend's girlfriend, and I believe gaining some brownie points with her.

Later in the night we all chilled inside just talking and letting my friend open her presents. She decided to act stereotypically jewish and save every bit of wrapping paper that she could, before someone promptly crumpled it up and tossed all of it. Just so y'all know, she was raised jewish before converting out of the religion... im not quite sure what she believes now. I sat next to her while she opened the presents and her girlfriend filmed her reactions to the stuff. I gave her my favorite musical- The Producers- as a last minute birthday present.

It was a really fun exprerience, and needless to say I felt pretty friggin' feminine throughout a lot of it. It may have been because my anxieties were finally gone and I could just let the real me shine through... but that segways into my next topic quite nicely.

I've been told that there are a lot of trans-folk out there who use drugs quite regularly to deal with problems of being trans (not saying that there are any problems with being trans, its just mostly emotional and social stigma which is forced upon us and prevents us from conforming well), and they do slip into a nasty drug habit.

Again, I'm not saying that pot is a "gateway" drug like its often portrayed by most, its just as likely to lead you into worse drugs as cigarettes. What I mainly wanted to say is that any transperson out there who DOES do a little bit of drugs... be careful of yourself. Enjoy that bud or beer responsibly, and please don't do anything rash.

With that said, I probably won't smoke again for another month or two... make me enjoy it, y'know? ;)