Ok, to be very blunt, I'm really annoyed right now. I'm sad too.
Thing is, last night I took some pictures of myself as I dressed up... and the pictures just sucked. The main problem stemmed from my hair. I'm thinning on my crown and I'm unsure if there's any way to regrow it. I am, idiotically, morally against wigs, so I will NEVER resort to them.
Unless I find something to grow back my hair I will end up as a bald woman... and whats the point of that? I know hormones will stop and most likely revert hair loss, but I'm at most 2 years from getting on hormones... When I graduate, and when I may theoretically be able to transition.
I basically just look ugly. So, I might as well just resort to going back to being a fucking guy, scratch my ass every day, bang chicks left and right, LOVE football, and never ever fucking talk about my goddamned feelings -___-
Then whats the point of anything? I'd resort to my former depressed state, possibly constantly think about suicide, and live a long, lonely life where I never smile-
- Sounds like fun :D /sarcasm/
I want to reassure you all that I will never resort to suicide. I've learned my lesson, and I make a point not to keep sharp objects ;D /serious/
Eh... just another doubting spell which I'm going through... I'll get through it.
*researches hair regrowth methods*
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Don't forget... you cannot lump all men or women in one category or generalization as both of you stretch the limits of the "traditional" definitions. And on another note... Now that you know who you really are there really is no going back. You will always be a girl no matter what the outside looks like. So although making the outside appear like the inside is somewhat forestalled... this is merely a bump in the road and I am sure there is a solution somewhere. No matter what, you aren't alone and this icky feeling will pass. I promise to make you smile again. :D
ReplyDeleteLove, Kyr.