Cath's better

Sorry about the last post everyone... I guess it happens. I'm all better now, thanks to some responses :)

So yeah, I've been working for several days straight waking up at dawn thirty and coming back home each day to a pair of dirty clothes and a lobster appearance... but its all well and good, I'm making some really good money and I lost 6 pounds (lol, I sense a British joke coming on :P )

hmm, nothing else going on besides that... just wanted to say that I'm doing much better today and that I love you all ^_^

*Agrivation*

Ok, to be very blunt, I'm really annoyed right now. I'm sad too.

Thing is, last night I took some pictures of myself as I dressed up... and the pictures just sucked. The main problem stemmed from my hair. I'm thinning on my crown and I'm unsure if there's any way to regrow it. I am, idiotically, morally against wigs, so I will NEVER resort to them.

Unless I find something to grow back my hair I will end up as a bald woman... and whats the point of that? I know hormones will stop and most likely revert hair loss, but I'm at most 2 years from getting on hormones... When I graduate, and when I may theoretically be able to transition.

I basically just look ugly. So, I might as well just resort to going back to being a fucking guy, scratch my ass every day, bang chicks left and right, LOVE football, and never ever fucking talk about my goddamned feelings -___-

Then whats the point of anything? I'd resort to my former depressed state, possibly constantly think about suicide, and live a long, lonely life where I never smile-

- Sounds like fun :D /sarcasm/

I want to reassure you all that I will never resort to suicide. I've learned my lesson, and I make a point not to keep sharp objects ;D /serious/

Eh... just another doubting spell which I'm going through... I'll get through it.

*researches hair regrowth methods*

Rosie the Riveteer

Hah, well I suppose I can't put off an update forever ;D

I moved back home for the summer a couple weeks ago, with a ton of stuff! (Just look at my previous post). Compared to my other summer breaks, I really did unpack all my stuff relatively quickly... all within a few days. Although in order to all that unpacking, I also had to clean out my room, throwing away notebooks from Highschool and then donating a whole bunch of guy pants and socks that have been collecting dust in a dresser hidden in the depths of my room >.>

Overall it all looks good. I organized all of my textbooks, books, manga, and dvd/vhs videotapes (I'm old school) all on my bookshelves and cleaned out dressers which have otherwise been filled with... crap. My floors are clean and everything is in its spot. The only thing that wasn't cleaned up was my closet.

My mother has been on my case about getting a job. Although she was happy about when I cleaned my room... She specifically asked about "How many trash bags did he get outta there?", so I think I could have just filled trash bags with shredded newspapers and still have a messy room and she'd be happy.

Ugh.
Anyway, I've sort of resorted to "Guy work" out in the lawn landscaping with a good friend of mine. Unfortunately I have to wear shorts (I hate shorts) when I work, so I guess its been a good thing that I haven't been continuously shaving my legs. So, my mother is happy now that I have a pseudo-job (I am making money, which I will spend on girly things :3 ), except on one of my only days off after several days of haard working she literally asked if I had been cleaning my closet. "Oh sure mom, I spend my days off when I'm so sore that I can hardly stand by working more."

lol, I could have sworn this update would have been longer... Thought I had something else to say...

Oh! I'm going on vacation next month to California! 2 years ago I figured out that I was bisexual in San Fran, and we're returning there and traveling north toward Oregon to see Redwood trees and stuff up there... heh, shame that the State couldn't hold two revolutions in my sexuality (the other, besides bisexuality, would be my transexualism), but oh well ;D

Hmm, the reason why I haven't been able to update the blog is simply because I've been soooo tired after working that I just crash. Good thing is that I am loosing weight and since I'm at my parent's home I am eating better. Everything is happy here. I'm still acting effeminate whenever I can (and when I can properly stand), and its great deal of fun...

Except I think I'm going bald D:

More on that later... I may use some of my money to get some Rogaine, I just need to figure out how long I need to continuously use it.

till next time,
Cath!

Why do I have so much stuff?

Yaaay. Moving day tomorrow, and all my stuff is packed up. Even all the stuff I like to play with is all squared away... kinda boring. All I have is my computer unpacked.

*sigh*

Also, when did I get so much crap?

Anyway, I'm kinda excited to go back. Despite the fact that it means that I can't fully be me... but still, there's always evenings ;D

Apparently my parents planned a family vacation out west again... back to where I found out I was Bi two years ago :P Should be fun. .

Thats pretty much all thats been going on here. I have a long drive tomorrow and I'll probably sleep heavily for a few days afterward.

Till next time-
Cath